Mr. Yell and I have been enjoying the outdoors more and more lately. If you happen to follow my Instagram, you might have noticed how I am making it more about being outdoors. I realized… More
It’s hard out there, guys. I mean I’ve read articles and studies and a bunch of other stuff about how hard it is to get a job out there in the “real world”, especially for Millennials just graduating from college. (I mean, a graduate needs a four-year degree and five years of experience for an entry level job now… Literally impossible.) It’s pretty brutal. It’s less brutal if you know what you want to do with your life and you have the ability to relocate, but still very tough to beat out people for a job and not just huddle in a corner and cry. #realLife
It’s been nine months since I graduated with my BS degree and for about four months I was actively looking for a job. I now have a job that I am really enjoying, but the job search took a bit of a toll on my self-esteem and confidence there for a bit. However, this experience has been enlightening and encouraging in many different ways.
Now, in November of last year I talked about some of the fears I had and that I was still working on overcoming them. This experience has helped speed along that process in a major way, really getting down to the grit of specific fears I have.
Fear of Judgement
I hate knowing that people are constantly making first impressions of others and the idea of taking tests to determine my knowledge or skill at something makes my stomach hurt. I hate being judged. I hate being put on a number scale to determine my worth, because to me I don’t believe it is an accurate depiction of who I am.
I want to be good at everything; and by that I mean that I want to do everything perfectly. If I am doing something I want every detail to be aligned and displayed in a creative and fun way, and if it isn’t I tend to beat myself up about it.
Not Being Enough
It was hard going into job interviews and not getting a job. I had flaws that the future employer could not overcome, so they choose someone else. Mostly those flaws were experience related, but it’s very hard not to take each rejection personally.
After each rejection, I noticed that my fears began to shrink. After each rejection I would grieve for a moment but then I would try to prepare for the next interview. Then, I started to list out good qualities about my professional self and memorizing them for interviews. I even carried them around on a piece of paper at one point so I could add more when I thought of them. I also started asking others what good qualities they saw in me so that I could add them to the list to tell future employers. This strategy helped me not just get a job, but be confident in my new stage of adulting. The career stage.
So, if you are out there searching and trying and maybe crying a little during a job search, just know you have many qualities to offer. So many, that I bet you could make a long list of them. 😉
Much love. Much grace.
The election is over. After a year and a half, America has decided that the best person for POTUS is Trump.
I cried last night.
I cried this morning.
I cried when I got home from work.
Not just because Trump has said horrible things about Muslims, Mexicans, or women; but because this is the person people wanted to hold the highest title in our country.
My heart aches. My mind, body, and soul are heavy and burdened.
People want this. So many people. And not just any people… but my people. People I love. People who taught me right from wrong. People who told me to be kind, compassionate, and to love others, no matter what. These people have actively chosen a man who defies each of these qualities.
At a time such as this. .. it feels so hopeless. Our country struggles with hating so many people. How can we heal? Are there any people who actually want to heal? People who desire to love? It feels like there aren’t. It feels like hope is gone.
But you know what? It’s not. There ARE people who are kind and loving and who actually follow Christ. There ARE people who once finished grieving, will get up and fight for what is right. There ARE people who will fight for equal pay and rights for all. I know this because there are so many of you who feel the weight of this decision as I do. You know that hate and fear don’t win in the very end, and that love has already trumped hate. You know that while the world seems so dark and full of spite, there are some willing to carry on and sweat for progress.
Today is yours. Tomorrow will be too. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to turn off your phone to journal, do yoga, and just shed tears for what has happened. These next few days are yours to work with… to process how this happened and why. Take some time think through it all, and know you aren’t alone. There are many who feel the same. For now my sweet friends, feel the heartbreak and work through your thoughts; for when you reach the end of grief, our work towards a better future truly begins.
Much love. Much grace
Hello everyone! It sure has been a while since I have updated. I have been making some new life adjustments these past few months and finally have time to take a breath!
Since May, several new things have happened and today I am so excited to share them with you!
Yes we moved! But only across town to a new apartment. If you follow me on Instagram you know how much I am loving our new place. Our old apartment was the perfect size for us, but it was very old. There wasn’t any central heating or air conditioning, only window units that barely worked and were tough on our electric bill. Since we live in Louisiana, central A/C is a must have… or at least having semi-working window units. 😉 So we took the opportunity to look for new apartments when our lease ran out and found a great apartment with great A/C and lots of big windows. I am loving this new place since it feels less dark with the sunlight able to come into our home, and this new apartment also allows pets! So that meant we had to get one….
We rescued a cat
After being in our apartment for about a month and a half, Mr. Yell and I just couldn’t take it anymore. We just had to get a cat. So I looked online and found a great website that helps people find the pet they want using shelters. We found our cute kitty online and then drove 3 hours to pick him up from a shelter. Originally , we wanted to wait a while before getting a pet, but when I found our cat online we couldn’t wait any longer. I mean, how could you not take this sweet kitty home?! He’s just perfect!
I got a job
That’s right, friends! I am officially a working woman! I am now a part-time teacher at an ELS Center teaching English as a language to those who don’t use it as a first language. After graduating I spent some time recovering from school and then set out to look for jobs. After a few months I finally found a job I was really excited about as well as co-workers and a boss that are just too amazing for words. I have really been challenged in this different area of teaching and the fast pace, but I am starting to get the hang of it and am excited for this incredible opportunity!
I have missed all of you and have really missed blogging. I am super excited to get back to business by uploading posts more consistently and I have quite a few new posts ready to be shared with you!
Much love. Much grace.
Hey friends! I know it has been a while since I have posted. I just wanted to give you a little bit of love and happiness this week! Here are some fun links I have found about little things that bring a little happiness. Enjoy!
I mean, how cute is this unicorn cake?! I am loving this unicorn fad and I am totally unashamed to admit it. If you love cakes and pretty designs, be sure to check out the Sweet and Saucy Shop!
These animal cracker pillows are so cute! This article is part of Brit+Co’s list of 17 DIY Pillows That Are Too Cool To Be A Square and each pillow is cuter than the last. These pillows just make me want to take up sewing… or at least try it out. 😉
I mean… this is the cutest thing ever. And the best part is that you can buy one custom for you and your Love! Rifle Paper Co. has the sweetest selection of pretty paper things and I really admire their artwork. Be sure to check them out!
I hope you all are having a wonderful week and I hope to have more content on the blog soon! Have a lovely day!
Much grace. Much love.
I can’t believe it! The three (almost FOUR!) months I took away from social media is up, and I am back on the Instagram grid and Facebook feed. I am so surprised I could do it, I did have one slip-up, but for the most part I was able to keep my distance from social media and I am so proud of myself.
While I have done social media breaks before, none have been as long as this one. For me, this was the last ditch effort to see how much social media makes, and breaks, my world view.
I began this experiment because I was in pretty bad shape. I didn’t really like anything about myself, both personally and physically, and I would find myself just throwing some serious hate at my “flaws”. I was constantly comparing every little thing about myself to a pretty picture on my phone screen, and I could never match up. I knew I would never match what the perfect feeds created, and that made me feel even worse about who I was.
I doubted my abilities as a wife.
I hated my body and was ashamed of how I looked.
I really wished I could just be someone else.
Seriously, a little over 3 months ago, those thoughts were continually running through my mind and I needed a break. I needed to remember who I was, what I enjoyed, and honestly spend less time on a screen. So I told Mr. Yell that I would take a week off of social media, and in his honest fashion he said, “Why not stay off of social media for longer this time? This way you can see if it really works.”
So, I made the plan to give up my Insta and Facebook feeds for the summer, until the first calendar day of Fall… and this is how it restored my soul and what it did for me.
Less screen time meant more ME time.
I spent an OBSCENE amount of time on social media. Like, it was ridiculous. So once I cut it out, I had so much time to do what I wanted to do. I dove into doing more yoga, journaling more often, reading books and the Bible more consistently, and thinking about myself. I started making lists of things I enjoyed for fun and what I wanted out of a career. I began thinking about what I valued from a job, and from my personal life, and made some life-goals to reflect those things. That may sound really simple, but I hadn’t really thought about what I really wanted to do with my life as an individual in a long time. I always felt pressured to be unique, or a “creative”, or whatever; but with this time off I was really able to look at myself and my talents and try to find what matched those things.
My life became a bit more messy.
I really did! I know this sounds silly, but being on social media really took me out of my creative element. By eliminating some social media, I picked up messy hobbies again and really enjoyed them. Painting, calligraphy, watercolor, and yoga were just a few things that created a bit more of a messy life. My life didn’t look picture-perfect this summer, because I didn’t feel that it needed to look that way for a picture to post. My messier life gave me more freedom and honestly, more fun!
I learned how to be more intentional.
When I first started this challenge, I felt like I was missing out on all my friend’s adventures and what was going on in their lives. This was such a great thing. Wanting to be more in-touch with my pals but not having social media to rely on, made me so much more of an intentional person. I would have to message someone to see how life was going, or even mail a letter, and it was something I hadn’t been good at before this started.
I realized I played less comparison games.
By not having complete access to other people’s projections of life, I had less to compare my own life to. This allowed me time to really think about what I wanted as a person professionally and personally without feeling like I “needed” to be doing certain things at this point in my life. With only myself to compare to, I (re)realized that I love painting, hiking, and reading. I began journaling more often and was able to work out some pretty difficult things between me and the Lord. Without social media being at the fore-front of my mind, I could very easily focus on the more important things in my life; like my husband, my spiritual life, and my health.
I really have enjoyed my time off from social media, but I am really glad to get back going with sharing things with you all and having that part of the internet community back. I feel refreshed and prepared to dive back into social media; as well as ready to hear from you all again.
Thank you for your patience with me as I have been a bit off the grid, and for encouraging me during this time!
Let the InstaLove begin!
Much love. Much grace.