The Year of 24

I had so many goals for when I turned 23 last year.

It is a tradition for me to make fun little goals for myself each year on my birthday to try new things or do more of what I enjoy. This year, I accomplished some but not all my goals couldΒ be scratched off the list.

This year I want to set different types of goals.

I want to set more meaningful goals.

I am continually growing in my goal setting because not only would I like to actually accomplish goals, but I also want these goals to bring me closer to a larger goal. Whether the goal is to be healthier, gain traction in my career, or find a way for my dreams to take shape, all of these larger goals need smaller more reachable goals. So this year I am setting realistic “themed” goals for myself.

Professional

  • Become more creative in my teaching.
  • Be more knowledgable in my content area.

Personal

  • Let go of anger.
  • Try not to expect perfection.
  • Be the hands and feet of Christ.

Physical

  • Take my vitamins when I need to (like an ADULT)
  • Drink more water (like an ADULT)

 

I am excited for what this year will bring for me and for my family. We have some exciting adventures ahead and I can’t wait to see how they all turn out!

Bring it on 24!

Much love. Much grace.

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How Interviewing for Jobs Helped Me Gain Confidence

It’s hard out there, guys. I mean I’ve read articles and studies and a bunch of other stuff about how hard it is to get a job out there in the “real world”, especially for Millennials just graduating from college. (I mean, a graduate needs a four-year degree and five years of experience for an entry level job now… Literally impossible.) It’s pretty brutal. It’s less brutal if you know what you want to do with your life and you have the ability to relocate, but still very tough to beat out people for a job and not just huddle in a corner and cry. #realLife

It’s been nine months since I graduated with my BS degree and for about four months I was actively looking for a job.Β I now have a job that I am really enjoying, but the job search took a bit of a toll on my self-esteem and confidence there for a bit. However, this experience has been enlightening and encouraging in many different ways.

Now, in November of last year I talked about some of the fears I hadΒ and that I was still working on overcoming them. This experience has helped speed along that process in a major way, really getting down to the grit of specific fears I have.

Fear of Judgement

I hate knowing that people are constantly making first impressions of others and the idea of taking tests to determine my knowledge or skill at something makes my stomach hurt. I hate being judged. I hate being put on a number scale to determine my worth, because to me I don’t believe it is an accurate depiction of who I am.

Imperfection

I want to be good at everything; and by that I mean that I want to do everything perfectly. If I am doing something I want every detail to be aligned and displayed in a creative and fun way, and if it isn’t I tend to beat myself up about it.

Not Being Enough

It was hard going into job interviews and not getting a job. Β I had flaws that the future employer could not overcome, so they choose someone else. Mostly those flaws were experience related, but it’s very hard not to take each rejection personally.

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After each rejection, I noticed that my fears began to shrink. After each rejection I would grieve for a moment but then I would try to prepare for the next interview. Then, I started to list out good qualities about my professional self and memorizing them for interviews. I even carried them around on a piece of paper at one point so I could add more when I thought of them. I also started asking others what good qualities they saw in me so that I could add them to the list to tell future employers. This strategy helped me not just get a job, but be confident in my new stage of adulting. The career stage.

So, if you are out there searching and trying and maybe crying a little during a job search, just know you have many qualities to offer. So many, that I bet you could make a long list of them. πŸ˜‰

Much love. Much grace.

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Heartache and HeartbreakΒ 

​The election is over. After a year and a half, America has decided that the best person for POTUS is Trump. 

I cried last night.

I cried this morning.

 I cried when I got home from work. 

 Not just because Trump has said horrible things about Muslims, Mexicans, or women; but because this is the person people wanted to hold the highest title in our country. 

My heart aches. My mind, body, and soul are heavy and burdened. 

People want this. So many people. And not just any people… but my people. People I love.  People who taught me right from wrong. People who told me to be kind, compassionate, and to love others, no matter what. These people have actively chosen a man who defies each of these qualities.

 At a time such as this. .. it feels so hopeless. Our country struggles with hating so many people. How can we heal? Are there any people who actually want to heal? People who desire to love? It feels like there aren’t.  It feels like hope is gone. 

But you know what? It’s not. There ARE people who are kind and loving and who actually follow Christ. There ARE people who once finished grieving,  will get up and fight for what is right. There ARE people who will fight for equal pay and rights for all. I know this because there are so many of you who feel the weight of this decision as I do. You know that hate and fear don’t win in the very end, and that love has already trumped hate. You know that while the world seems so dark and full of spite,  there are some willing to carry on and sweat for progress. 

Today is yours.  Tomorrow will be too. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to turn off your phone to journal, do yoga, and just shed tears for what has happened. These next few days are yours to work with… to process how this happened and why. Take some time think through it all, and know you aren’t alone. There are many who feel the same.  For now my sweet friends, feel the heartbreak and work through your thoughts; for when you reach the end of grief, our work towards a better future truly begins. 
Much love. Much grace

Exciting New Chapters

Hello everyone! It sure has been a while since I have updated. I have been making some new life adjustments these past few months and finally have time to take a breath!

Since May, several new things have happened and today I am so excited to share them with you!

We moved

Yes we moved! But only across town to a new apartment. If you follow me on Instagram you know how much I am loving our new place. Our old apartment was the perfect size for us, but it was very old. There wasn’t any central heating or air conditioning, only window units that barely worked and were tough on our electric bill. Since we live in Louisiana, central A/C is a must have… or at least having semi-working window units. πŸ˜‰ Β So we took the opportunity to look for new apartments when our lease ran out and found a great apartment with great A/C and lots of big windows. I am loving this new place since it feels less dark with the sunlight able to come into our home, and this new apartment also allows pets! So that meant we had to get one….

Β We rescued a cat

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Our newest addition: Mruczec! (pronounced Mroo-check)

After being in our apartment for about a month and a half, Mr. Yell and I just couldn’t take it anymore. We just had to get a cat. So I looked online and found a great website that helps people find the pet they want using shelters. We found our cute kitty online and then drove 3 hours to pick him up from a shelter. Originally , we wanted to wait a while before getting a pet, but when I found our cat onlineΒ we couldn’t wait any longer. I mean, how could you not take this sweet kitty home?! He’s just perfect!

I got a job

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My first day teaching at ELS

That’s right, friends! I am officially a working woman! I am now a part-time teacher at an ELS Center teaching English as a language to those who don’t use it as a first language. After graduating I spent some time recovering from school and then set out to look for jobs. After a few months I finally found a job I was really excited about as well as co-workers and a boss that are just too amazing for words. I have really been challenged in this different area of teaching and the fast pace, but I am starting to get the hang of it and am excited forΒ this incredible opportunity!

I have missed all of you and have really missed blogging. I am super excited to get back to business by uploading posts more consistently and I have quite a few new posts ready to be shared with you!

Much love. Β Much grace.

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Why I Don’t Hate Donald Trump

Boy. I am beyond ready for this election season to be over. I don’t know if it’s the first election I am participating in as an engaged voter, or if it really has just been an exhausting season. I hope we don’t ever have such a long campaign season as we have seen this past year, because at this point I am just over the whole thing. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE politics! I mean, I have a Social Studies Education degree for crying out loud, so I have to like it… but this election season has been emotionally tiring and a down-right disturbing display of behaviors on both sides of the ballot.

As I have mentioned before (mostly on Twitter) I have been avidly against Donald Trump. I have been since the beginning because I am a bit of a people person, so social policies and and equality issues are a big deal to me. That being said, most of my ideals do tend to align more with the liberal side of spending rather than conservative.

One thing I have noticed though is that people tend to assume thatΒ since I am against Donald Trump, that I must in fact HATE him. Since I am against his policies, his ideals, and his words, people automatically think that I hate him as a man.

Well, I don’t.

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I don’t hate Donald Trump. I dislike him and what he says in the spotlight, but I don’t hate him and I don’t think I ever will. And here’s why:

Β He is doing the best he knows how.

He really is. Mr. Trump has never lived in poverty, or even middle-class. He has no earthly idea how a blue-collar worker lives or the sacrifices those in the military world make. No matter what you say, he honestly cannot understand those struggles. His idea of sacrifice is all from a business side of the world and he really cannot comprehend what others go through. With this in mind, he believes what he is saying is real and is doing the best he can to appeal to people with whom he has nothing in common. I can’t blame him for his upbringing, his lack of knowledge in the “lower class” or poverty areas. He does not know and does not understand.

He is doing what his side of the spectrum wants from him.

While I know that many from the GOP don’t agree with Trump, he is still appealing to the mass amounts of Conservative Republican voters. He is doing what he knows has worked for him in the past. If a crowd cheers after throwing a person under the bus (metaphorically…) then he will do it in the next speech. If people cheer for a giant wall being built, you can bet that he will continue to bring up the wall in his next interview. He is doing what he knows the voters want from him, and he will continue to do so.

Β Hate is a strong word.

You guys, hate is a very strong emotion to feel towards a person. To hate someone allows anger and fury and a desire to see that other person to die to rise up in you. If I hated Donald Trump, I would be wishing his death or his family to be thrown out of the country, or for him to be tortured. I do not hate him. He is a man, a person, just as the rest of us are. He can be redeemed. He can be forgiven. He can have a different story if he so chooses.

Β I believe hating a person is wrong.

Since I was a child, I was taught that hating a person is wrong. (Thanks Mom and Dad!). To hate a person is the worst thing I could possibly do to him or her. How can a person come to know Christ by my hatred? How can Β I talk of love and yet deeply loathe a person? I can’t. As a follower of Christ it is wrong for me to HATE Mr. Trump or Mrs. Clinton or President Obama. Each of these people are still redeemable and can accept Christ.

Again, Β I do not agree with Donald on his policies, his comments to minorities or women, and a few other things; but for me to feel hatred toward him doesn’t do me any good. My hatred of him only eats at me and shows others that my God can be hateful towards people. I am sorry if I gave the impression of hatred. Know that we can all disagree and still want the best for the other person.

much love. much grace.

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